Brown Sugar

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I remember as a young girl, all my Father ever played was Music. Alot of music in our home.

Matter fact, less Television. Only on Thursday evenings. Remember ? Cosby Show First, Different World came on after. yup , VHS was hot back than, we recorded all the Cosby shows.  that was so long ago. I was always  excited to ride with my Dad in the car, he loved Jazz , hundreds of albums, My mother loved Gospel. The Clark Sisters especially, and Helen Baylor. Kenny G, and Sade music always played in our home. The love for Music started very young, I'm not a singer, But I always felt comfort with a pen and pad in my room,  on the weekends most of the day, I would play Music, and when I look back on it, My parents didn't really bother me. I played music all day long , and write. .. exactly what I'm doing now. My father taught me everything about Music, and the appreciation of Music, I remember being so in awe of Earth, Wind and Fire, and they came in town, we were suppose to go, we didn't.I think I cried . funny right? I was mad! Just the passion of an artist and their craft amazes me.When I think of Music , I think of Minnie Rippleton, Stevie Wonder, Lauryn Hill, Sade, Isley Brothers, Robert Kelly aka R Kelly. , The Roots, Jill Scott, Erykah Badu, Nas, Chaka Khan,  Michael Jackson,  I could go on. Im also a big Coldplay Fan, and Maroon 5. I love it all and respect all types of Music.Brandy and Faith Evans are two artists I respect. My favorite female artist is Lauryn Hill. I had the pleasure of being in awe of her live in 1999. 

 My siblings and I are all talented in the area of Art. My sister can sing, I write, and my brother produces music , since he was a kid, and has worked with several Artists in Texas. I can go over my brothers house, he always has me listen to his new music material , and we both get  in our own zone, , matter of fact quite honestly he is one of my favorite producers, beside R kelly and Kanye West.Super Talented ! love him so.. Thats how "cold" my brother is. My sister never has shut up.  and I say that with love, she always sings. and can sing. I see my daughter Jada in her, Jada never shuts up . .At the end of the day Music soothes my spirits, it uplifts my day . I cant go a day without it.Like a Beyonce song " Radio" ooohhh yesss I heard that track and I was thinking to myself " I can relate to this song!!" .Or when I first saw the movie Brown Sugar, true story, I recieved like 3 calls, from people     " Miya I saw that movie and thought of you ." I love the Character of Sanna Lathan, have you seen it? Watch it. Cute story about love and hip hop. .. 

 Dang I wish I was a kid sometimes all over again, Than again, I still get a little excited when Im in the car with my father the times we do get to spend together.. smoothe ride, great music. Cherish the times with people you love.  love you Pops :)  this one is for you-

peace and love

Everything is Everything

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I guess..  people .. pretty  much would  expect a smile from me most of the time..when they see me.  great instant communication, always in a "chippery" mood. the moment silence revolves miya, there is a problem. something must be wrong. baffles me, im only human. Created only to cry, be depressed at times, sad at times, just like the next human being.

At this moment Im mute, only expressive through writing. sending calls to voicemail, listening to erykah, lauryn, and kanye. Overwhelmed with recent events, tearful , a little confused, nervous, a tad angry, heartbroken, about past situations that I just now really feel. 

I think im allergic to stress, I also believe thats why people love me. I dont have a million bucks, I dont stay in the mall and rack up things, I truly believe people adore me for the person I am. Honest, Down to earth, caring, Real. Positive. I run from Stress, run very far. Sometimes Depression creeps up on flesh, see thats all we are, blood runs through my veins, im easily to tear, the only thing that keeps me strong and should keep any flesh strong , is this heart thats inside our bodies. I try to guard it but times it gets shot down, i feel it. it stings a little, no really it stings a little. I crawl up and let all the tears out, that Moment I feel alone, realizing its me myself and I . Yes, many friends, great family. But we die alone, we walk alone everyday we walk out our homes. we drive alone, we do many things just by ourselves.  ,but than I feel his spirit and he tells me "youre not alone" .. thats why my spiritual soul loves the Lord, I feel protected at the end of the day.

Raising my daughters, I sometimes think to myself "Wow  I have two queens. both girls who expect so much from me." That keeps me alive, that keeps me going. makes my heart rather filled with so much love, these two people love me unconditionally, like Christ loves me. So while im sadden.. everything is everything. Ill be ok.

peace and love

Daddy Didnt Raise a Fool-more like A Queen

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No Scrubs



FACT is, a real Man respects a Woman. nothing worst than a Man disrespecting a woman.

Now I 've seen a woman disrespect herself, which  you would assume it gives the opportunity for a man to believe he can disrespect her, because of how she carries herself. I say, thats not an excuse. like Pac say "We all came from a woman. "

I ve been in all types of relationships.. lol not many believe it or not. but Ive seen it all. I left after I felt  disrespected.

if you disrespect me, its a slap in the face.Being raised  with a man daily in my life, I learned one thing, even for the women who grew up in a stable single  parent home with a woman, you should Know : Never depend on anyone. I also learned as I grew older to make sure the Man Im dealing with has his stuff together, financially on top of his business, not wanting for anything, on his grind, hustle, no scrub. Now Please understand, the same man who showed me what a real man is , is the same man who has been at the same company for 20 years, took care of his family. My own choices as i got older, lack of obedience, and a youthful lost " girl" I did what I wanted for a very long time in my very early twenties.  Since than of course, I ve become wiser, more careful on my choices. Not all perfect by any means, been hurt, And yes still single.. meaning not married, enjoying my company with "my guy" but not putting too much into it knowing things can change, i expect only the best, nothing less. Or Im Out of there, All women should know their worth, only expect the best in return , not only material things, but mentally, emotionally as well. Being there when times are tough, but woman enough to put things back together, makes a real woman. just working together. and both simply " on their grind" .  

peace and love mb-

Career = Bright Future

Well well, Im more expressive writing, Im also very expressive face to face. phone conversations do me
no justice. lol i talk very fast (the city girl in me) and better eye to eye contact and a pen and pad.. However Im also very good at stating my Point, thanks to Speech and Debate back in High School, I  always won competitions , and well my mother is an excellent speaker. Go figure.

I mention my family often, because their my biggest supporters, my voice, my reason for being so positive. Ive been faced with many struggles but because of family I always seem to be lifted up with positive thoughts and, my head up held high.

I had the lovely chance to speak with my mom tonight she knows me so well I just said " mom whata up " .. where am i going" ..no  real introduction of the call, she had no clue my day was long and disappointing.. she quickly replied " up " .. ... "You're reaching to your success your desires babygirl". i laughed .. and i said  "good good love you goodnight". funny, both of us arent really " phone " people. If i call you its usually a reason, i speak to only a few of my dear friends for a while on the phone. but it was cute and reassurance my life is headed  only the right direction.

Im the leader of my own choices, Destined for only the best outcome, striving to never say I shoulda coulda.. still finding my way in this Dark selfish World. Full of greed. Evil human beings past  me everyday. Guard my heart, use my mind, daily on my grind. day dream than wake by reality that all i have is Me. Understanding Corporate America could be my damn "America " a ruler of my own power and making my own Money, and giving back not taking back, being blessed so my two daughters will NEVER have to want for anything, keeping my eye on the prize.  yup

peace and love - mb

My Future Until I'm Old and Grey: My past.

I always told myself in my 30s I would move where I would retire, I absolutely love Washington DC,
I also love Atlanta, Georgia. Or should i say  my past,  in Atlanta, briefly in college, and meeting my best  friends . ( love you Kim and Ilene :) ) , or for the first time really coming into my own,  being mentored and close friends with Mason Bethea Aka Mase, who at that time was a student at Clark,   aww memories people grow and life is about Growth, .-  miss my S.A.N.E. group - his twin Stason,  my girl Tina , kim, jas, ilene,  and list goes on..

 I was very young, and even a young mother by the time I officially came back to Dallas, Texas. Now im exactly 30 years Young .. and my future is very very bright, so bright i want to share the news with everyone, but I'm just going to let action take place and hope my dreams come soon reality. I have two daughters, that means two bills. .. that means a family environment, good schools, culture, which i believe my current city has NONE.None at all. to be quite opinionated. I love everything about culture, and history, DC defines that in my book. outside of DC, yes i could live there too, my great Aunt lives very nice in DC, but that's my great aunt minus children, and my cousin who is a very well known entertainment lawyer.. minus children.. let me get back with you on this one...


hmmm... than theres Chicago .. let me daydream

Peace and Love

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A Challenge

I love Challenges. All my life I have been challenged in my personal life, but of course

By my own choices. I quietly laugh at the fact I’m so darn difficult. Hmm I’ve always

Been linked or interested in the “bad boy”... not the one in the suit, don’t get

It twisted I do like an educated brother, I’ve always dated someone that was

Very intelligent, however very ruff around the edges, you can define that how

You like.

I’m a very feisty individual; the best friend a friend could have... the best girlfriend

A man could have. Loyalty and respect I can honestly say defines my Character.

Failed relationships define my current status... funny I know.  Marriage did it.

Long term relationship. Done it. Sigh... you know when I was a young queen

I prayed on my knees at night for a wonderful husband, a family, that’s what

I saw growing up, so of course I always wanted that.

I had it for a while, just well not as happy as I vision. I notice a lot of

Smart, beautiful women are single and unhappy. .. Hmm... Unhappy I would

Say I’m not unhappy... just wanting better, Having very few I choose to date, and allow in my life. .Maybe its men I attract... or because I haven’t consistently prayed about my

King like I should. At the end of the night, I lay in my very comfortable

Bed and sleep Good at night, knowing my worth, understanding my time

Is important, my soul is loving, my smile is beautiful, my waist, hips thighs

Are just as beautiful as the next woman, confidence instilled from the woman

Who raised me. I love the “beauty Marks” on my face, my slanted eyes, and the small

Gap between my teeth, yes yes I love it all...  I  even love my big hands, all my flaws that make me. Miya.

 I love me. That’s all that matters.

God loves me more

Till than... I guess his lost. J

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Blessings everyone everyone everyone!! 2011 .. We made it.. I mean if you reading this you made it .. thank GOD!! Wow .. so hows life? Bad good. You alive ? so it should be great. **

**2011 MB THOUGHTS AND WISDOM**
HATERS
Stop it!! the word” hater”  is old and outofstyle. Matter of fact you ARE Your OWN hater. You use it so D*** much. No one is hating on you, your  so called “hater”  just mad at themselves. Get over it. .. their  just insecure people who watch everything you do, and need some kind of Attention. Pray for them .. amen .. number one people :  Black women, well women in general. Who gives a d***about who got what and what their  doing, what dude their dating .. so on and so on ,, at the end of the day You cant take that too Heaven sista! are they really happy? Do what  makes you happy. Not only what makes you FEEL a certain way, at a  certain moment. It has to LAST more then a month or two.. heck more than a year or two~ Thank you

GOALS

So Ive been entertained thoroughly in the past two weeks, from everyone saying what they plan to do , not gonna do all of the “goals” they have lined up Shut up ! and JUST do it ! don’t talk about it be about it. especially Adults who are getting older , so lets all get on our grind, whatever it might be – including myself

DATING ( for single unmarried “ folk “)

Ugh my head hurts, just typing that word. I know there are many  beautiful souls who are single and  great people, just yearning for a  wonderful soulmate. Reality is you Have control,  .. but God has FULL control. , dating is wack too me, Its pointless I say it all the time. Some might disagree but this is in regards to MY life.. well not really but you get my drift.. Be careful who you Allow in your life. Coming and going is just not healthy, yeah cool go on a couple dates
With that king or queen, but slowww down. Be wise about who you allow in your home, who you open your legs too, pull your pants down for.. im just keeping it 100,  all that stuff gets old and at the end of the day – your still lonely,  searching for that true KING or QUEEN in your life. The best thing too do is spend time loving you. Focusing on  YOU! Everything happens for a reason, we live our life by choices. When he/she comes you will know. It doesn’t hurt to pray either! Pray !!!

2011-2012

When its all said  and done, if youre still doing the SAME thing you were doing 2010 you suck! Especially if you call your self “ growing “ and leaving the past behind bs.I know for me, my goal is too finish this  book so people can leave me alone and I can shut up talking about it, no pressure.. yeah right. Creating a website, for my blogs and doing my PR thing with my beautiful Mommy who is the bomb businesswoman. I want to get married, ( Wait that might not happen this year  .. got excited) ,make a lot of money so I can  give lots  to my lovely church, I want to make sure my daughters continue to grow in the Word of God, active in the church , lastly I just want to continue to be free spirited, complicated , unique , artsy, outspoken, Real , down