Tuesday, June 25, 2013


Beautiful life is when you have suffered, conquered all, and come to the realization that life is what it is... life. My eagerness to evolve into this special light has me anxious and full of positive energy. I love all the things that the most high has presented me.

I fear no one. I trust only him. The past months I've had  dreams that I clearly remember when I wake. I cry because of not sadness, but cry due to worshipping, cry due to happiness.I no longer question why my heart has been broken a few times, why I give too much at times. I love Me. I love Him. Reaching beyond what I can even touch or see. I was my own prisoner once, and it concluded with a spirit that wanted me full of sadness forever. Do you ever feel like no one understands you? Or feel like you haven't accomplished all you desire? Or even feel unloved? Stop questioning. Life is life.

Recently, I was in a car accident with my two daughters, the brakes completely went out on me, stop working!! All I could visually remember was my life passing by. My leg got caught between a parked car, and my door that was open. No one else involved but my daughters and I. I quickly turned off the busy street and crashing was the only way the car would stop. I was so scared, my daughters screaming. BAM!!! I had opened the door to get my daughters only to realize I had no way out. but the girls were in the back seat and were safe, I wasn't. Crashing sometimes makes you recognize that their is a higher power than us. Crashing into the cars, which happen to be old cars for sale, actually were our shield or it could of been more dangerous, and people involved if I didn't get off the street. It made me realize that God is my shield, he will never leave me or forsake me.

Many nights I have pondered on the thoughts being married. Being a wife. Never one to be desperate, but always one to have long term relationships and they fail. Then I concluded after praying and studying the bible, God desires are not on my time. He knows my heart, he knows my desire, but most importantly he wants me to reach towards him first, before I reach my heart out anymore to any Man. Just like my car accident, when we crashed into the two other cars, I calmly thought about the goodness of God, although my nine year old was in tears crying witnessing her mother leg caught in between the car and the door, I looked at her without tears and said " I'm ok". Although I was worried, I knew that I was protected, waiting for the ambulance to come I was in peace.  I asked you readers have you completely crashed? Has your soul, mind, and body fallen so low that you thought you couldn't reach your destiny????  A dream is not just a dream, and questions aren't just questions. Understand that if you change the way you live, especially if you know its not a life that is full of growth, you will see a positive outcome. Reaching for anything you desire, without consistent and proper attention, will only lead to a negative consequence. Reach not with your own hands, but the hands of the Most High.Let him guide your hands without you doing it yourself.

- Let me show you my way for you this day. I guide you continually, so you can relax and enjoy my presence in the present. Living well is both a discipline and an art. Concentrate on staying close to Me, the divine artist. Discipline your thoughts to trust Me as I work my ways in your life. Pray about everything; then, leave outcomes up to Me. Do not fear my will, for through it I will accomplish what is best for you. Take a deep breath and dive into the depths of absolute trust in Me. Underneath are the everlasting arms - Psalm 5:2 Deuteronomy 33:27 


1 comment:

  1. This was beautiful. I'm so glad you and your daughters are safe. We all crash, but I believe, like you, that it's just about knowing whose repair shop to go to. I like God's work best. ;-)