Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Flawless




Be YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never ever think we're Born perfect .ha! NONE of us are. none of us are born perfect, never making bad choices, always making right decisions. Always have our things in order financially, and our career has always been at the top . If you ever meet someone like that I would love to meet them.

 I've NEVER ever been one that has a JEALOUS heart, eager for attention, thirst for companionship, in need of a friend. my mother, bless her heart.. is a woman who sat down and taught me every single thing about character and behavior. Yes this is a confident blog, this is an empowerment blog. A Brutal honest expressions of truth on Miya. I'm very grateful for a mother who prayed for me when I was "wilding" out, having fun in life, from going through a nasty divorce, first hand being there from life personal trials I went through in my life.( miscarriage, divorce, depression, etc.. ) My mother was on her knees in heavy pray every single night. I've thanked her so much for praying for me when I was at my weakest times in my life. I've failed so many times and made so many mistakes in  my life.


For the past year I've disciplined myself with walking a straight line, not even trying anymore. Just letting go.. letting GOD. Just acting on it  This last year I was in a very  dark place. I got on my knees to pray, I put everything and everyone out of the equation and found peace. I've always been a very confident and honest individual. I've always been a visionary, a winner in my own right. Never wanting to discourage anyone. But love and support anyone, even strangers who are doing what they love.. .just ask .. if you know me they will  tell you!

 Being flawless is how we perceive ourselves. If we wake up with a mindset of worry, fear, and not feeling beautiful within we will have this mental thought we're not good enough. well.. let me use this as a Message:  not just to woman. Men as well feel this way! The difference between a man and a woman, men will use his insecurities by either talking down about the opposite sex, society, and boast on what he doesn't really have . A woman will do the same thing, but use her outer appearance to gain attention for the wrong reasons.

BE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! be flawless. Be different. 2014 Do something you've never done. Successfully accomplish something that you haven't even made a priority but only something you dream at night but never speak or do it. DO IT. flawless

Peace
MB

Reaching Heights

 
                                                                  

Discipline is the word I will use for my challenging, growing unique year. The year is GONE. 2013 is GONE!!! I have been on a very beautiful journey for three hundred sixty-five days straight. All my past blogs this year said the same thing; involving growth. all aspects of growth. All levels to growing.

 The fact remains that as we make the decision to grow, and become discipline everything you dream of come together. I've been misunderstood, I've been told things that are not accurate, I've also been told many things; and never listen. I only listen to those who have my best interest and are sincere. I believe as people we tend to really listen to those who don't have our best interest. I believe we're judged to soon from people who don't even  know us.. REALLY KNOW US, secretly despising us.
 I believe we try to impress people when no one really cares. Naturally, I am a person that of course love people. I've always been outgoing, yet love my privacy. I did learn this year, how incredibly shy I can be in a certain atmosphere . This year I 've observed  and encountered people who do anything for just a little attention, who have this fear of not being loved. This year I've observed how quick people lie without thinking before they speak. I love discovering the soul of one person. I love gathering and making confirmation why people act the way they do. I admire those who find themselves lost in the world, yet find themselves spiritually evolving. Now, honestly none of what I just expressed is towards my personal situations, just overall what I have witness and educated myself on.

Reaching Heights. Action is the up most respect I have for one person. Without Action you have no defense. Recognizing that human beings are in awe of what they see with their own eyes. Fascinated on money, and materialistic things of life. concludes how backwards we can be, and follow without leading. Quite frankly I have also concluded how weak human beings are. How weak we can be when something or someone has what really doesn't fulfill them; I learned this from social media, and even when people speak. Reaching heights is what we all need to do. Putting things in perspective, be goal- oriented, discipline on our dreams and act towards them in a humble quiet matter.

I've received many emails since September why I haven't wrote a recent blog.. I wanted to take time to reflect, and focus on my own personal goals. I love that my readers enjoy my topics on Love. For those who are in need of being loved, I ask you to put God first in all you do, for he loved you before Man. My life testimonies are to inspire you. I have loved and been hated, but my heart is pure. My life is real. Excited for what is in store for all of us. Reach your heights, respect your mind, be a leader.

Peace
MB

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

COOKIES



I love that people try to figure me out, sometimes I can be very transparent and often times I'm a mystery, trying to fade off the love for zodiac signs, however I do think its the Pisces In me :) Only time that I open up about my personally life minus the deep conversations with close friends or  family is really through my blogs :)

Sex is a topic I believe people try not to talk about unless its behind close doors. I believe that people have used sex as a very  "casual" encounter, no intimate or fascination about it. When Indeed it is, sex should be a beautiful encounter between two people.I'm going to be honest, when you're in a peaceful discipline place in your life your needs and concerns are so much in order, you know you only deserve and want the best for yourself. I've witnessed and also experienced things that I wish never happen, I also come to an conclusion that being a woman defines power in many ways..

I wish that people would not rush Sex. I've had many conversations in the past  months about the need for sex, and let me remind you we live in a society that sex is so casual than ever before!Being  responsible is not even part of their lifestyle.Now that I have a preteen, not only is she beautiful, and smart but my protection over her is strong as it ever has been. Being an example to both of my two daughters is my main goal. I have a great relationship with their father now, I  am happily single, and focused on so many things that the excitement of my future I cant even begin to express.

I feel that alot of women ages twenty six and up; have totally lost the power of control. NO,I am not a saint nor have I ever claim to be, nor am I one to judge. However recent events have sparked my concern and attention for my beautiful queens. I think there is a time in your life that we all want to have fun and not be responsible on what is in front of us, understood. I've enjoyed life, I still Live life. But just more responsible. I've never  been so distracted by the lust of the opposite sex, to where I fall. Never. I notice people who think they know someone assume without knowing details of another person personal business. The fact is,  the best thing to do is not give something for people to talk about ! Either way,people tend to gossip.Character is everything. I'm talking about sexual activity with numerous people. The episodes after an encounter of lust sometimes can  lead to  rumors, embarrassment, and damaged reputation. I'm speaking about the people who urge for something for just that  moment. How long have you gone without having Sex? How long can you? over a year?  I was speaking to a few men, from ages  twenty six to forty four years of age, One was married and cheats on his wife occasionally, and the others single and  not looking for commitment. I believe that women have made it easy for men, not the women with morals, and self respect. But the women that make it hard on "good " women. Its been like that for years ! Whats the definition of a good women?? simply..  a lady . I think at times women become vulnerable after a bad relationships , and have this "i dont care" attitude , (Ive been this way before.)They tell themselves , they will have fun without commitment and have a sex partner with no care in their  world, when the reality is, emotional most women cant handle that. Because after you're intimate with a Man, everything changes. Feelings get hurt, and youre back at being angry with men.

The fact is men are strong but very weak at times, mentally,  cannot control themselves; which controls the physical! yup! Biblical Speaking : man needs woman.and vice versa.Genesis 2:21-23 the Lord God fashioned into a woman the rib which He had taken from the man, and brought her to the man. The man said, "This is now bone of my bones, And flesh of my flesh; She shall be called Woman, Because she was taken out of Man. "  It is my  belief that acting like a lady will define how a man treats a woman. The world we live in now- welp..  the respect  is an all time downfall. We had the eighties and nineties,but its a whole different new time and age of interacting with someone, the new ways of technology, social media, anything that can focus on the materialistic ways of what a woman should be has brainwashed all young women all over the world.

The virtuous women is somewhere either praying, hoping ,dreaming or enjoying  life and not expecting anything from a man anymore due to the continue habits alot of women have today. The discipline man is doing the same. Of course we have the man thirty and up, fear of settling down, so caught up with money and his career, or one that just have no idea on how to be with one woman. We could use the common statistic growing up fatherless,not all but many! Honestly it should come a time in life where maturity needs to fall in place, and learn how to control your body. Lusting for half of your life on earth, only defines fear in my eyes. I believe in commitment, honesty and being wise on whom you choose to be sexually intimate with. I've made a few mistakes in my life, we all have ! But the mistakes only make who I am today. The sexually diseases and the irresponsibility of people not protecting themselves when having sex, is even more of a scary thought.According to Avert.org, 1.3 million people are living with HIV in the United States of America, with a fifth unaware of their status. I'm careful, and furthermore I want my daughters to wear their crown high when they get older .

 I love the beauty of a man and a woman. I love to see beautiful people happy and being together. But overall being in peace and loving the skin youre in, only makes you more cautious who you give your COOKIES Too :)

Peace and Love

 MB

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Harvesting

 When you have conquered all the things that can tear you down, completely surrendered to God allowing him to intervene in your daily ways of living, you find out how weak the enemy is. The enemy can be something you use to desire, or  it could be someone.

 I've been tested  throughout my life, yet the place I'm at in my life, really shows the power of God. I have allowed him to take control over my tongue and my actions. Have you ever been in a place in your life, where things are going well, and than you feel attacked spiritually ? That is God harvesting you so you can continue seeking him first. It is a TEST. do not FAIL this test, because if you FAIL, you have to start your journey over.

Harvesting is just a definition of true growth. Its after you have defeated  the enemy, you've been attacked and came out of the tough fight. Harvesting is the conclusion of a story you have probably shared times and times again, and finally see the results by being obedient.

I believe that as a growing Christian, and I say "growing" because I am harvesting daily ! I'm receiving all my abundant blessings because God has tested me and I keep passing! I keep being tested of course . Yes, I actually grew up in the church. Yes, I was born into the word of God. It is NOT RARE. however I do recognize I am grateful for my parents, grandparents, for instilling me in the Word. However I'm just now really focusing on my harvest. The truth is, the most profound Christians, and leaders of the church did not grow up in the word of God, most of them didn't just instantly start speaking the gospel to people. Which makes them outstanding leaders of the church. I would express this blog might not  be for everyone, but it is! I know thousands of my readers are not Christians, or believe in the God I serve. Let me enlighten you; in order for you to harvest and see the blessings upon you , please understand a few things:

The first thing is understand that we live in a selfish world, the "world" does not LOVE you.The second thing; there is a HIGHER  POWER who created earth. The third thing; there are things in the world that are made for you to FAIL.In order for you to grow and receive all the things that are meant for you to receive, you will be attacked by the enemy it could be a family member, a best friend, a stranger, a drug, any type of addiction, a disease, the nice person who smiles at you at work, school, even at church .Whomever whatever it is, if you're not obedient and seek help you will find yourself in a deep dark place you cannot  get yourself out of.

I ask that you let go of certain things or people, learn how to forgive those who might have hurt you.Understand the flesh will lie, spit on you, try to destroy your name and character - you have no control over that. But what you do have control over is how you will overcome . Allow yourself to walk in another dimension in your life.Harvest.

peace and love
 MB

Sunday, July 28, 2013

LOVE


I titled this blog Love, simple and direct. All my soul, mind and body is full of unconditional aspiration and growth  My prayers are stronger, my mind is stronger, my life is stronger. Without love and inconsistency I would be at a dead end. I love the power of love, I also love the power God gives us to  make choices. Making bad choices in our lives, it is meant to happen. From what I have learned, its not suppose to flow and be a straight path. Without bad choices, we wouldn't have a story to tell, neither a testimony to share to others.

 The desires we have throughout out life can either make us or break us. Love  isn't pain ,nor deceit. No matter where you're from, your nationality, belief culture. Love is Love.I've made many mistakes in my life, but one thing I have learned is despite out of all the hurt Ive endured, the inner struggles Ive encountered as a woman. I Always understood the meaning of what Love is, and ran away from anything that didn't show it.

Many people have their own definition of what love is,what I might consider love is not what the other person defines. Let me help you, love is exactly what my bible reads. Love is kind,  never fails. Love is not being physically involved with someone without commitment, nor is love angry, bitter, and betrays you. Love isn't feeling trapped or in danger with a significant other. You should not fear love, nor should you be afraid to love and receive it. Love is action, not words. We use the word love very loosely, but the tongue is powerful , use it wisely.

Love is consistent action.When I think I love, I really think about children who might not have love at home, who might feel abandoned from their parents. Ive met and even have close people in my life who never had their parents tell them " I love you". Love starts at home.You might know someone that might grew up not even meeting or having a relationship with a parent,When they get older its hard for them to show what love is. Understand, you can break that cycle. It starts with understanding what love is, and praying for a change within. I have shared in my past blogs my first marriage, and the things I dealt with as a young wife. It involved adultery, infidelity , physical and verbal abuse. My spirit was broken, my heart was full of pain. But let me tell you, God is faithful. I have always made sure I fall on my knees and ask God to guide me, because at the end of the day God is Love!  No consular, or therapist can understand you better than the Most high. You can only be delivered from him not man. Learning to love yourself fully, will open  and heal your heart. I have had my heart broken a few times in my life, but I also realize that having a broken heart taught me a few things; recognize the pattern I put myself in, and to prioritize whats important. What  might be important to you is not what God has planned for you. I love me. I love everything he has ordained me to be, I love all my trials and tribulations, all  my storms and rocky times. I love the fact God has empowered me to be this queen that I can lead by example to my daughters. Therefore I know the meaning of true Love. I love hard, I don't love easy. I love my husband wherever he is, I claim a beautiful healthy God- fearing marriage that lasts until God calls me home. 

My prayers for the woman that might be yearning for Love or a husband, Don't be desperate for a Man, but desperate for what God has in store in front of you. My best friend is the love of my life, doubt only equal fears, and I fear no man but God.Naysayers, and negativity stray away from. Focus on all you desire. -

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

Peace

MB

































Tuesday, June 25, 2013

REACH




Beautiful life is when you have suffered, conquered all, and come to the realization that life is what it is... life. My eagerness to evolve into this special light has me anxious and full of positive energy. I love all the things that the most high has presented me.

I fear no one. I trust only him. The past months I've had  dreams that I clearly remember when I wake. I cry because of not sadness, but cry due to worshipping, cry due to happiness.I no longer question why my heart has been broken a few times, why I give too much at times. I love Me. I love Him. Reaching beyond what I can even touch or see. I was my own prisoner once, and it concluded with a spirit that wanted me full of sadness forever. Do you ever feel like no one understands you? Or feel like you haven't accomplished all you desire? Or even feel unloved? Stop questioning. Life is life.

Recently, I was in a car accident with my two daughters, the brakes completely went out on me, stop working!! All I could visually remember was my life passing by. My leg got caught between a parked car, and my door that was open. No one else involved but my daughters and I. I quickly turned off the busy street and crashing was the only way the car would stop. I was so scared, my daughters screaming. BAM!!! I had opened the door to get my daughters only to realize I had no way out. but the girls were in the back seat and were safe, I wasn't. Crashing sometimes makes you recognize that their is a higher power than us. Crashing into the cars, which happen to be old cars for sale, actually were our shield or it could of been more dangerous, and people involved if I didn't get off the street. It made me realize that God is my shield, he will never leave me or forsake me.

Many nights I have pondered on the thoughts being married. Being a wife. Never one to be desperate, but always one to have long term relationships and they fail. Then I concluded after praying and studying the bible, God desires are not on my time. He knows my heart, he knows my desire, but most importantly he wants me to reach towards him first, before I reach my heart out anymore to any Man. Just like my car accident, when we crashed into the two other cars, I calmly thought about the goodness of God, although my nine year old was in tears crying witnessing her mother leg caught in between the car and the door, I looked at her without tears and said " I'm ok". Although I was worried, I knew that I was protected, waiting for the ambulance to come I was in peace.  I asked you readers have you completely crashed? Has your soul, mind, and body fallen so low that you thought you couldn't reach your destiny????  A dream is not just a dream, and questions aren't just questions. Understand that if you change the way you live, especially if you know its not a life that is full of growth, you will see a positive outcome. Reaching for anything you desire, without consistent and proper attention, will only lead to a negative consequence. Reach not with your own hands, but the hands of the Most High.Let him guide your hands without you doing it yourself.

- Let me show you my way for you this day. I guide you continually, so you can relax and enjoy my presence in the present. Living well is both a discipline and an art. Concentrate on staying close to Me, the divine artist. Discipline your thoughts to trust Me as I work my ways in your life. Pray about everything; then, leave outcomes up to Me. Do not fear my will, for through it I will accomplish what is best for you. Take a deep breath and dive into the depths of absolute trust in Me. Underneath are the everlasting arms - Psalm 5:2 Deuteronomy 33:27 

Peace
MB

Saturday, May 11, 2013

HIGHNESS



The Revelation on your life is how it ends. Everything is based on the outcome of your trials, storms, highs and lows.Life is beautiful. The perception on how you identify yourself, will conclude the result of either a happy or sad ending.

 All of my experiences have made me yet stronger than I was a year before. Losing, gaining, loving, hating. Oppression, depression, sadness, emptiness, deliverance, repentance have all played a part of my current life challenges. Fascinated on how in awe God has built me to be this being of what a woman is. loved or hated, I have fallen in love with myself in all way possible.

Lacking responsibility of our actions will determine how our lives will go. You meet people throughout your path in life, its amazing the impact another human being can have in your life. Its rather crazy how people can emotionally at times impact your life. Mentally challenge your own character. I have concluded that the beautiful thing about life, is how strong we all are. All the different evil or kind spirits,people,circumstances, situations can either make you or break you. Understand that you reign as high as you perceive yourself to reign. Throughout life you will experience pains in your heart, downfalls and great accomplishments. The most important part of living on this earth in my eyes; not losing your focus, regaining your strength when no one is around and you feel like you have none.You have to stay completely grounded, sustaining your ability to achieve all you pray and cry for. Having close family and friends that can support you through your life journey.

Defeat  anything you once thought you could not defeat!!! From me to you, Never give up

Peace

MB

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Coming Out of Your Comfort Zone


Let me share my testimony  ( unedited ):

God will literally break you down where you have nothing. nothing at all. I have held on this baggage from my past where it has not allowed me to grow. Nor has it allowed me to maintain full stability mentally, or emotionally. When you hold onto baggage in your life, your blessing will not flourish.  (Even if you're not considered religious.) Spiritual guidance must be in order for you to be freed from your past. There was a point in my life years ago  I had  nothing at all. I had left behind a life that I thought was financially making me happy, living a life most twenty year olds wish they could live!  My two daughters and I were sleeping in my car for a brief time, I was too prideful to reach out to close friends and family. I found myself connecting with someone  who became a blessing at the time in my life. All the trials and tribulations in my life have been because of refusal to commit myself  to fully  lean on and trust the Most High. Sometimes we truly believe we can take care of ourselves mentally.. in reality we cannot do it by ourselves, we need to be guided the right direction. I've been on my own since I was nineteen  years old. Always, independent, working taking care of my family, but at times struggling to take care of them.

The stubbornness comes from nothing but the devil. My upbringing consist of  loving christian educated parents, my legacy consist of well known individuals who all are successful. So I asked myself why Lord had my life turned into something that was not really destined for me. Clearly because of holding onto baggage and not letting go!!!! I have many successful friends from all over the world, my parents are prime example. I have seen all the desires of Man. Money has not ever made me something I'm not, I grew up having all I wanted, and even as a young adult saw the fine things in life. I was raised by a real man, a caring father who showed  my sister and I how to be treated. From traveling, fine dining, and all the desires of any young girl .I still was stuck on why  my own personal growth financially, and physically  was not  being fulfilled??.Still holding on to baggage from my past. Being hurt by people throughout my adult life from men and women. Those I thought " loved "  me , friends I "thought" considered themselves good friends. Let me express to you without fully letting go on what the devil wants you to hold on to, you will not be blessed.

Coming out of your comfort zone in life, will make you stronger. It will allow you to release all negative energy that has been "stuck" in your soul for years. I have been through hell and back. A failed unhealthy very abusive marriage, without work, and without some of the necessities that life offers. I ask you live your life humbly, live your life full of love. I have always been humble, and full of positivity. But without full attention on myself, and what has held me down, growth will not come. You can have all the desires of the world. Money, clothes, cars, anything that you consider that makes you happy. But it is a fact that without true happiness and cleansing from your past, cleansing of your soul you will stay in your own comfort zone, that does not allow you to achieve all your blessings. Let Go and Let God

Peace and Love,
MB